This year my husband and I will celebrate 10 years of marriage. Which to anyone and especially to us is a big accomplishment. Recently I have found myself getting into conversations with others on the subject of marriage. Most are opposed to the thought that any marriage can be a “forever” or “till death do us part” thing. And what they are saying isn’t wrong…It’s just not true for me. When my husband and I read our vows to each other 10 years ago I don’t think either of us really looked at the till death do us part statement as anything other than a promise that we would be together forever. As someone who was young and in love its was much cuter to say, “I promise we will be together 4Ever”. So now after 10 years I am not sure how I find myself in these conversations, I really don’t. But I am sure there is a reason. So I thought I would just put my view on this here on my blog. 🙂 My point of view on this is that if you are looking for someone to make you happy for the rest of your life than more than likely you will not be happy in your marriage to ANYONE. When you are finally happy with yourself is when a true marriage begins. For me and my husband of almost 10 years that did not happen until recently. We hung onto each other all these years and got to the place we are today off of pure love. Let me be clear that it is nobody’s job or duty to MAKE YOU HAPPY. You must be happy with your TRUE self before even being able to offer your love to those around you. You cannot give something that you do not have. If you do not have love for yourself than there is no way you could truly love someone else. My true marriage began a little over a year ago when I could love who I was and still be accepted by my husband. After almost 9 years of my husband trying to make me happy I finally told him, “STOP, it is not your job to fix me or make me happy”. I took back the responsibility for creating my own happiness. That and only that is what will lead you to the right life partner or spouse. The love my husband and I have for each other is unconditional not only because he is my husband but because he is has always been my friend. He inspires me to be better and I love that about him. So if you are looking for a man or future husband start by looking within yourself. Love yourself, take responsibility for the love that you are seeking and when you have truly made peace and have excepted your TRUE self love will find its way to you. The universe will always send you what you put out there and if you are putting out love than love is what you will get in return.
“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” – Buddha